Transmasculine…
What does it mean to begin with.
So..I’m learning to be just me and to be open with who I am….and who I am is transmasculine. What that means is that while I was born into a female body…I don’t truly identify with being a female. Now with all of the talk lately of transgender individuals…im not that. I do not….i repeat…do not and am NOT transitioning. I am not becoming male, I do NOT wish to become male. At least not at this point in my life. Continue reading
*** This blog was first composed right after Turkey Day … sentiment still exist”
The “holidays” are here again. It’s that time of year for everyone to put on their “fake smiles” and pretend that they like you. When the reality is that for the first 10 months of the year they have hated the fuck out of you and now they have to pretend like those months have never existed because they want to be “blessed by some fake fat imaginary man someone dreamed up that they tell their children comes down a chimney or whatever and leaves gifts and treats under a tree that’s been hidden in a attic collecting dust mites, spiders, and whatever else” and not they hope that you will be nice enough to buy them something.
Yeah…that ain’t happening. Chile… my shoes are more important than buying some people gifts. I mean the only other people who deserve my money came from the vaginas of TIB, SW, YLHC, FW, and VTR. Soooo yeah…since ain’t no rings on these fingers…ain’t no boo-thang either.
But for those who know me well…know that this mouth, mind, body, spirit, soul, whatever…has no filter, no clout, no nothing. So…here goes your holiday announcement. Continue reading
Okay so this has nothing to do with lions or bears…but it’s a 4 month update. I’ve got a draft from the summer I need to finish, but I need to also finish uploading all of the photos from this summer. I never got the time to do it, because well I was having one hell of a end of a summer stress load at work.
So…update time….
Nephew left..went home..I cleaned house. It no longer smelled like a teenage boy. Tobie was happy to get his room and bed back. I unplugged everything in the room, and it took two months for my light and water bill to go back to to normal.
Work…Finally got my rotation done. **falls to my knees and thanks crispy black jebus or whoever** Within a week, i just felt such relief about not having a supervisor breathing down my neck about what i was doing 24/7!! It’s been such a night and day difference. Where my new super is demanding…but damn she gives me FREEDOM!!
So I haven’t posted in a short while, I keep meaning to do so, but well life gets in the way. Continue reading
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The worst of the worst is over…My pain is now just limited to when I yawn early in the AM. I actually ate pizza last night for dinner. It was still a struggle to get it down, but I managed to eat an entire personal pan pizza. Of course there wasn’t any tomato sauce, I never really like it. So that “acid” wasn’t in the equation. Continue reading
When you think things are getting better….you take 1 step forward, but then life and reality slap the fuck out of you and knock you back 5.
Here’s my story … Continue reading
It’s Sunday May 21, 2017.
Already, i’ve been through a whirlwind of emotions.
So let’s talk about them….
So after hell decided to open up last night in my throat, i tried to sleep. It wasn’t pretty. I was up til like 2 am with ice packs glued to my throat in hopes that the cold would penetrate my skin and then my throat. It didn’t work. All i managed to do was get a slight freezer burn on my neck. I mean i already have enough scars in my mouth, and now this…ugh.
updated now that it’s almost 11 pm i’m in bed now. I went to see my doctor, but he’s off on thursday’s. so i saw the PA instead. I needed to know why my mouth felt like it was on fire. Forget that i had skin burned off a week ago, but even water burns going down. nothing in it…just water..and it burns. So turns out, i have oral thrush. This is typical of tonsillectomies in adults. I’m glad i went when i did. not sure i would have made it through the weekend. But i see my surgeon again on monday for my follow up. but outside of the thrush, she said things looked decent. no bleeding for me, just need these scabs to fall off and go somewhere. i want some crispy chicken, or even a great juicy steak. Continue reading
