After things went south, this is how I felt about them. I felt like I truly loved them, and they were only pretending to love me. Then more time passes and we talked more and hung out more and I realized that they did love me, or maybe they were being manipulative.
But I do feel like if I let myself go back down that road of dating again, this is what will happen. I’ll fall, hard and fast. And the other person won’t feel anything towards me. Then they will leave and I’ll just be sitting there looking stupid once again.
I don’t want to be looking stupid again. So I’ll stay away from that aspect of life as long as possible to save face and grace. I don’t want to be an idiot all over again. I refuse to be made a fool of again.